Temptation

 I first spotted them outside my bank. It was friday. I needed to cash my check.  As I get out of my car and walk up to the front entrance they just smile. I expect them to ask, but they don't, guilt feels my stomach, should I? Shouldn't I? I want to, I definately want to, but I made a comitment to myself. Will I walk out of the bank and get in my car victorious? or will I fail, and succomb to temptation? As I enter the bank with my deposit form and my weekly pay check, I get in line. The call of the dark and delicous and satisfying table of greatness lies just meters from me. They ask a small price. A small price indeed for such a magnificant indulgence.

I can feel my will power crumbling, and shaking. The pen in my hand wills itself to alter the cash back line, just $20.00 "Thats all..." my heart and soul tells my mind. As I stand in line. Just two people in front of me, I guestimate that I have atleast 5 minutes to make up my mind. To decide if I am going to give into the pressure, or stand firm in my committment.

...One person in line now...... And now its my turn....

 I decide to take out $20 dollars, my will power wasn't strong enough. "Can I get $20 dollars cash back?" I ask the teller. She complies. As she is completing my transaction, I realize the magnitude of my decision. Its been a whole two weeks with NO errors! How could I think of faltering now? But my decision has already been made! The teller hands me my receipt and my cash back. I walk slowly towards the door. Knowing that the moment I walk out the door they will ask me the question I had been dreading since I walked into the bank. As I walked, the inner battle between my angel and devil continued. I finally reached the door, I pushed it open I braced for the dreaded question. 

"Do you wanna buy some Girl Scout Cookes?"



The smiles, the rosy red cheeks, the cute little uniforms. The delicious boxes of cookies laid out before me, so many choices! Thin Mints, Samoas, Tagalongs, my three personal favorites! "They are only $7.00 a box ma'am" the little girls tell me. But I am aware of the price. I have had that price logged in my mind for years now. I take a deep breath in. My imagination plays tricks on me, I can smell the chocolate and peanutbutter, and carmel, and mint. I can taste it! I breathe out and I politely say, "Thank you, but maybe next time"

Then I smile, turn quickly and walk as fast as I can to my car before the temptation grabs a hold of me and wrenches me around and drags me back to the darn table where moments of pure bliss are packaged into little cardboard boxes sitting waiting for me to buy them. I start my car. A bitter sweet feeling consumes me. I didn't give in to temptation, but, I will not get to enjoy the satisfaction of those sweet little cookies. It was a test well conquered.

Until next time, Girl Scouts, Until next time...The End

This was the temptation I faced this entire week, first outside of my bank, then out side of my gym, then outside of the movie store. Everywhere I looked they were there to tempt me. But I didn't give in! Its been just two weeks since I gave up sugar, and I am happy to say I am still fighting the battle. I measured myself on saturday and I had lost two inches off my stomach. PROGRESS! What they say is true! Sugar does bloat your stomach. haha My wedding dress is sure to look great! I cant wait to see the end results.

I have however given myself two cheat days, because I just don't think I will survive the events, one is my Bridal Shower, and the other, my Bachelorette party. I hear there are going to be tasty chocolatey treats at both of them! and I cant wait!