The Time Draws Near

** Disclaimer; This post has sappy, heartfelt, lovey dovey moments Proceed with Caution.

I will be getting married in THREE days!

It seems like forever ago since I got engaged and even longer since I met Brandon, but it has only been a short year. Time has flown by. If someone would have asked me last year around this time where I thought I would be in a short years time, I don't think I could have predicted my future. It is amazing to me how so much in your life can change in just one tiny little year. 

I met Brandon at the end of February 2010. March 26th 2011 I am getting married to him for Time and ALL of Eternity. I get to be his wife, be the mother of his children, and enjoy spending my life here on this earth and after this earth with him.

Brandon proposed to me on October 16th 2011. It was an exciting moment in my life, one I am sure I will never forget. From October to the end of January we had to wait to set our date. During that time, we both waited patiently for the time in which we could finally set our date. That time came at the end of January. Three Months Later! It was painful waiting, and seemed like such a long time. Its funny tho, looking back now, those three months passed quickly. Once we set our date, time quickened. Before I knew it the month of my wedding arrived.

I had my Bridal Shower, that my soon to be sister in law threw for me. I went home to Idaho to visit family. Last Saturday was my Bachelorette Party. Monday after work I went in for my last dress fitting (I bought a Tiara)  After my fitting we moved into our apartment. We spent last night organizing our apartment. Family showed up yesterday afternoon and more family showed up later that night.

Here I sit, Wednesday Morning, three days before my wedding. I don't have much to do today, except hang with family, but tomorrow, more family shows up, and I get to pick up my dress. Friday we get to go to the sealing ceremony of Brandon's sister and brother-in-law followed by a celebration for them. Then we get to spend the evening setting up our reception hall.

At some point Friday night, I hope to get to bed because Saturday is my wedding day! I have a hair appointment that morning followed by pictures then my ceremony and then my Reception Saturday night!

It is all so exciting and I cant believe how slow (yet fast) time has gone getting to this point.

Three days until I get to marry my prince charming, and they can't come fast enough.

Temptation

 I first spotted them outside my bank. It was friday. I needed to cash my check.  As I get out of my car and walk up to the front entrance they just smile. I expect them to ask, but they don't, guilt feels my stomach, should I? Shouldn't I? I want to, I definately want to, but I made a comitment to myself. Will I walk out of the bank and get in my car victorious? or will I fail, and succomb to temptation? As I enter the bank with my deposit form and my weekly pay check, I get in line. The call of the dark and delicous and satisfying table of greatness lies just meters from me. They ask a small price. A small price indeed for such a magnificant indulgence.

I can feel my will power crumbling, and shaking. The pen in my hand wills itself to alter the cash back line, just $20.00 "Thats all..." my heart and soul tells my mind. As I stand in line. Just two people in front of me, I guestimate that I have atleast 5 minutes to make up my mind. To decide if I am going to give into the pressure, or stand firm in my committment.

...One person in line now...... And now its my turn....

 I decide to take out $20 dollars, my will power wasn't strong enough. "Can I get $20 dollars cash back?" I ask the teller. She complies. As she is completing my transaction, I realize the magnitude of my decision. Its been a whole two weeks with NO errors! How could I think of faltering now? But my decision has already been made! The teller hands me my receipt and my cash back. I walk slowly towards the door. Knowing that the moment I walk out the door they will ask me the question I had been dreading since I walked into the bank. As I walked, the inner battle between my angel and devil continued. I finally reached the door, I pushed it open I braced for the dreaded question. 

"Do you wanna buy some Girl Scout Cookes?"



The smiles, the rosy red cheeks, the cute little uniforms. The delicious boxes of cookies laid out before me, so many choices! Thin Mints, Samoas, Tagalongs, my three personal favorites! "They are only $7.00 a box ma'am" the little girls tell me. But I am aware of the price. I have had that price logged in my mind for years now. I take a deep breath in. My imagination plays tricks on me, I can smell the chocolate and peanutbutter, and carmel, and mint. I can taste it! I breathe out and I politely say, "Thank you, but maybe next time"

Then I smile, turn quickly and walk as fast as I can to my car before the temptation grabs a hold of me and wrenches me around and drags me back to the darn table where moments of pure bliss are packaged into little cardboard boxes sitting waiting for me to buy them. I start my car. A bitter sweet feeling consumes me. I didn't give in to temptation, but, I will not get to enjoy the satisfaction of those sweet little cookies. It was a test well conquered.

Until next time, Girl Scouts, Until next time...The End

This was the temptation I faced this entire week, first outside of my bank, then out side of my gym, then outside of the movie store. Everywhere I looked they were there to tempt me. But I didn't give in! Its been just two weeks since I gave up sugar, and I am happy to say I am still fighting the battle. I measured myself on saturday and I had lost two inches off my stomach. PROGRESS! What they say is true! Sugar does bloat your stomach. haha My wedding dress is sure to look great! I cant wait to see the end results.

I have however given myself two cheat days, because I just don't think I will survive the events, one is my Bridal Shower, and the other, my Bachelorette party. I hear there are going to be tasty chocolatey treats at both of them! and I cant wait!

Week 1 of No Sugar

Today marked the end of week one of cutting sugar out of my diet. Like I said in my previous entry, I am cutting myself off of all things sugar and chocolate until my wedding! They say sugar causes your stomach to bloat, and BY GOLLIE! that is something a soon to be bride definately doesn't want! So I am avoiding it like the plague.

Week one wasn't so bad. Actually it was much better than expected. I guess when you eat right all the time, it is easier to give up those things that are bad. Nonetheless, I did have cravings, I wanted that chocolate bar so bad. I especially wanted warm gooey right out of the oven chocolate chip cookies... those definately would have hit the spot, not to mention that they are making my mouth water even as we speak. But I didn't give in to those cravings.

I was tempted many times to give in. Cookies and cake were at my disposal, I don't even care for cake and yet it sounded good.  I went to the grocery store and there they were staring at me in the check out line, reeses, snickers, whatchamacallits, twix, 100 grands, Cookies and cream! What I wouldn't have given for a cookies and cream hersheys chocolate bar. Don't know about you but I just love the way the white chocolate melts in my mouth til all I have left is cruchy cookies. Its pretty much heaven. BUT I DIDN'T GIVE IN!

I have to say tho, I kinda found a little bit of a cheat. One of the things I enjoy doing is sampling the protein bar that happens to be on sale that day. And last week I stumbled upon the Triple Threat Energy Power Bars. Carmel Peanut Fusion Flavor. It tastes just like a snickers. So I stocked up! I have one a day. So I dont' feel totally deprived of my chocolate, and they are a much heathier option. Especially when eaten right after a hard workout!

About thursday/friday of last week my cravings finally broke. I found that I wasn't so hungry, My body wasn't constanly craving sugar, so I wasn't constantly wanting to eat. I found that today I had to constantly remind myself to eat my food. Which is GREAT! I am now in the zone of feeding my body and not my stomach! Eating because I need to not because I want to.

Week one was a success, I hope it gets easier from here on out! Lets just hope! =)

Power Bar Triple Threat Energy Caramel Peanut Fusion- tell me that doesn't look tasty!